Came to the clinic at 8.15 am even though I was asked to come 8 am. I just could not be bothered. I know it won't be A good news anyway. My feeling? I don't know... What should I be feeling right now? Sad, disappointment, loss I don't even get to have my 2ww. Well I don't know maybe Allah has better plan for me. Bit confused now. Nurse asked me to change clothes now i'm wearing OT gown, I did asked her did the egg fertilized , yesterday none fertilized. Owh I wouldn't know anything about that, you would have to ask the lab. What??? I will be rather frustrated strutting down to the OT with only the OT gown n were told none to transfer.... I'm wanted to cry but DH is here. I down him to see how upset I am. I have given a good one hour cry after the embryologist informed me... More update... My blood pressure was skyrocket high and have a bit of temperature. Nurse asked me not to stressed myself out. After she leaved I asked DH how could I not stressed out... Zero fertilization ... Nada... None... My brain has been working overtime...I keep on thinking what is my next step. For me: 1. Lose weight yup I'm obese n I know it 2. Exercise.... Slow n steady I hope, I don't want my heart to have a shock 3. Eat healthily 4. Supplement I even list down what DH supposed to do 1. Drink more water. He hardly drinks water 2. Eat healthily. He likes fast food. 3. Supplement More update: The embryologist came n see me. None fertilized as expected. I asked her what went wrong. She said the egg remained 1 polar body after 48 hours and ICSI. She could not tell what's the problem. Even ICSI was performed by senior embryologist due to only 3 eggs, it could be sperm, egg or both. Arghhhhh headache.... I just want to shout on top of my lung. What is wrong with me. What is wrong with hubby? Can it be fixed. Or if next cycle will yield the same result.
Written Date:7/4/2012
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