You must be wondering why so many posts in a row and in a day? There is a funny story behind it anyway... I forgot which account i used to post in my old blog. Hence I have to copy into a new one. Note to myself... write somewhere your blog account and password for future reference...
I'm ready to update my next fertility adventure. Till my next post..... TARA....
Wednesday, 12 December 2012
End of ivf 4
Came to the clinic at 8.15 am even though I was asked to come 8 am. I just could not be bothered. I know it won't be A good news anyway. My feeling? I don't know... What should I be feeling right now? Sad, disappointment, loss I don't even get to have my 2ww. Well I don't know maybe Allah has better plan for me. Bit confused now. Nurse asked me to change clothes now i'm wearing OT gown, I did asked her did the egg fertilized , yesterday none fertilized. Owh I wouldn't know anything about that, you would have to ask the lab. What??? I will be rather frustrated strutting down to the OT with only the OT gown n were told none to transfer.... I'm wanted to cry but DH is here. I down him to see how upset I am. I have given a good one hour cry after the embryologist informed me... More update... My blood pressure was skyrocket high and have a bit of temperature. Nurse asked me not to stressed myself out. After she leaved I asked DH how could I not stressed out... Zero fertilization ... Nada... None... My brain has been working overtime...I keep on thinking what is my next step. For me: 1. Lose weight yup I'm obese n I know it 2. Exercise.... Slow n steady I hope, I don't want my heart to have a shock 3. Eat healthily 4. Supplement I even list down what DH supposed to do 1. Drink more water. He hardly drinks water 2. Eat healthily. He likes fast food. 3. Supplement More update: The embryologist came n see me. None fertilized as expected. I asked her what went wrong. She said the egg remained 1 polar body after 48 hours and ICSI. She could not tell what's the problem. Even ICSI was performed by senior embryologist due to only 3 eggs, it could be sperm, egg or both. Arghhhhh headache.... I just want to shout on top of my lung. What is wrong with me. What is wrong with hubby? Can it be fixed. Or if next cycle will yield the same result.
Written Date:7/4/2012
Progress so far
A day after my ER, I saw a missed call from unfamiliar number... My heart been thumping outloud... I guessed this must be bad news from the clinic... Well it was from the embryologist... Out of 5 eggs, 2 were immature, other 3 eggs were icsi but no sign of fertilization... Bummer... I could not believe it's happening again... No fertilization. I guess I produce crappy eggs n DH have crappy sperms. Match made in heaven. I could only pray my children won't have tha same fate as us. She asked us to come to the clinic tomorrow morning anyway in case late fertilization... I don't have high hope... Good news if we did not make it to ET could have rm 3000 refunded. I'll be saving that money for the next cycle (if there will ever be)
Written Date: 6/4/2012
Can I Proceed???
Well this morning I saw Dr Tee again. Me and DH came early to avoid the traffic. 8:30 am and waited in the lounge till 10:15 am... Have another ultrasound and seems:
Uterine lining 12 mm
Left ovary : 4 follicles with sizes range from 18-23mm
Right ovary : finally it's around. 2 follies with size 16-20mm
Other follies is smaller less than 15mm so hopefully they'll grow some more
6 follies.... hope for the best
Next Step:
No more gonal f, burserelin, menosys injection. Apparently Dr said my ovary have enuf.
Tonight : Come back to the clinic for HCG 10,000 iu injection at 10 pm
Friday (6/4/2012) : ER day... 6:30 am at the clinic.
Bit nervous though, my serial coughing is still around. Hope everything went well.
This is the first time i've done IVF without any blood work done during stimming. Maybe less follicles so Dr is not concerned that I'm a potential OHSS candidate.
I've been drinking loads of water, one to prevent OHSS and most importantly i just want to shift the cough away. Good health.
I also plan to take leave whole week next week. This is to avoid stress. It's an hour drive to work. I don't need the stress of facing heavy traffic every day.
Uterine lining 12 mm
Left ovary : 4 follicles with sizes range from 18-23mm
Right ovary : finally it's around. 2 follies with size 16-20mm
Other follies is smaller less than 15mm so hopefully they'll grow some more
6 follies.... hope for the best
Next Step:
No more gonal f, burserelin, menosys injection. Apparently Dr said my ovary have enuf.
Tonight : Come back to the clinic for HCG 10,000 iu injection at 10 pm
Friday (6/4/2012) : ER day... 6:30 am at the clinic.
Bit nervous though, my serial coughing is still around. Hope everything went well.
This is the first time i've done IVF without any blood work done during stimming. Maybe less follicles so Dr is not concerned that I'm a potential OHSS candidate.
I've been drinking loads of water, one to prevent OHSS and most importantly i just want to shift the cough away. Good health.
I also plan to take leave whole week next week. This is to avoid stress. It's an hour drive to work. I don't need the stress of facing heavy traffic every day.
Written Date: 3/4/2012
How it's been feeling lately...
Today is D9 of stimming... There are some pressures down there. First all the aching is more intense on the right side. Since my U/S yesterday and informed by Dr he could not locate follicle/ovary on my right side... Well... the pain seems to dissappear... Physiological only effect.
I was sad... but i have to keep positive for the sake of the rest of my left ovary. Go follicle Go... Grow some good healthy eggies.... Give mommy something to be proud of.
My left side started to have twinges and pressure feeling... So next step... i will only inject on my left side. So all nice hormon will reach faster and better.
DF is 23 mm... Please do not grow so fast let other follicle/eggs grow as well.... Sharing is caring DF..
I was sad... but i have to keep positive for the sake of the rest of my left ovary. Go follicle Go... Grow some good healthy eggies.... Give mommy something to be proud of.
My left side started to have twinges and pressure feeling... So next step... i will only inject on my left side. So all nice hormon will reach faster and better.
DF is 23 mm... Please do not grow so fast let other follicle/eggs grow as well.... Sharing is caring DF..
Written Date 3/4/2012.
Syringe... Needle... Anyone???
Good news...
Due to my panic incidence yesterday, the clinic gave me syringe with short needle ... the stupid needle did not reach even half of the ampoules to draw drug.
So today i visit the clinic, this is one of the positive side working in faculty of medicine with attached specialist clinic (but no fertility facility) . Managed to asked one of the nurse to pass me over a syringe, mixing needle n subcutaneous needle. It's an interchangeable syringe.... So I'm a happy woman. She asked me how many would I want... Of couse sitting back in my fridge is one set of menosys...So i took one.
Update: I feel calmer for my menosys injection last night. The syringe really help. The powder dissolve throughout compared to the day before. I think some of the liquid left in the bottle and i did not get the right dosage as intended.
Due to my panic incidence yesterday, the clinic gave me syringe with short needle ... the stupid needle did not reach even half of the ampoules to draw drug.
So today i visit the clinic, this is one of the positive side working in faculty of medicine with attached specialist clinic (but no fertility facility) . Managed to asked one of the nurse to pass me over a syringe, mixing needle n subcutaneous needle. It's an interchangeable syringe.... So I'm a happy woman. She asked me how many would I want... Of couse sitting back in my fridge is one set of menosys...So i took one.
Update: I feel calmer for my menosys injection last night. The syringe really help. The powder dissolve throughout compared to the day before. I think some of the liquid left in the bottle and i did not get the right dosage as intended.
Written Date: 3/4/2012
Emotional Rollercoaster
I pray hard this IVF would work... Why?
1. I really wanted more children.
2. I paid loads for this treatment.
3. I could not focus on work at the moment as kept thinking about the treatment plus emotionally unstable due to tons of drugs circulating in my body.
4. I need to go and see the doctor and undergo process that i despise....
5. Who likes injection... Frequent and daily injection
6. I have hope in my heart and the desire keep pressing me.
So when i get setback like hiding and inaccessible ovary.... of course i'm depressed. Top it of with six follicles on the left ovary with variable sizes... I worried... worried a lot. What if... No eggs in the follicles.. what if the eggs immature... what if no fertilization.....
1. I really wanted more children.
2. I paid loads for this treatment.
3. I could not focus on work at the moment as kept thinking about the treatment plus emotionally unstable due to tons of drugs circulating in my body.
4. I need to go and see the doctor and undergo process that i despise....
5. Who likes injection... Frequent and daily injection
6. I have hope in my heart and the desire keep pressing me.
So when i get setback like hiding and inaccessible ovary.... of course i'm depressed. Top it of with six follicles on the left ovary with variable sizes... I worried... worried a lot. What if... No eggs in the follicles.. what if the eggs immature... what if no fertilization.....
Written Date 2/4/2012
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